I named my new blog as breaking grounds initially to chronicle my adventures as I travel the world and be involved with the lives of those who I get to meet along the way. The eagerness to start something new with the new year always sets in to me just as it is with most of us.
It never came to my mind that it will also make sense as a title as I now try to establish new beginnings with my personal life specifically my personal relationships.
Admittedly, the past weeks were tumultous. My relationship with this girl started to go downhill about three weeks ago. That Wednesday night was a sign. With her claiming that she always makes the sacrifice to maintain the relationship within hearing distance of my friends and some strangers dumbfounded me. I thought those claims, no matter what the cause is, are supposed to be discussed in private. After all, our relationship was not perfect. There were times that we argue a lot and there were the good times. The bad times, we always tried to have time discussing at my usual insistence that I need time to think things over and her insistence that we need to resolve it at that moment. Anyway, the previous incidents had always been relatively easy to handle, except for that night.
At that night, I really thought of how the relationship is going. Thoughts of possibilities and what ifs, of why she did it and what more she can do came bothering my mind. Then I suddenly realized that she is slowly getting out of my future's picture.
I enter into a relationship thinking and hoping that it will be the last. With that in mind, every time there are difficulties I fight for what can be saved. As long as there is a bit of that love left, I stay. I may decide to take my own time, but I stay.
That precisely happened here. But the series of events that happened that fateful night spelled our end.
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